Deplorable

 What is the trait I most deplore about myself...

DEPLORE: Feel or express strong disapproval or regret. 

More than one...

I'm petty. Always have been, and I really hate that. I can get upset/annoyed at little things..especially sharing things. I've gotten a lot better I think. But it still rears its ugly head, especially with William. 

I deplore my reactions when I get triggered. It makes me realize I still have a lot of work to so in that area still. Need to practice the breathe/pause response, rather than anger. 

My last situation with it, caused me to get into Bryn's face, yell at her and my instinct was to slap her face. (I didn't) And I fear I broke something in our relationship. It breaks my heart that I hurt her. 


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