Fear

This I know: Fear is a liar. Admonishments related to fear are listed over 100 times in the Bible. Fear is not of God. I personally wonder if Fear is the root of what eating the apple brought to humankind.  

What things am I afraid of? Since I don't have a good grasp of my true feelings, (working on that)...I find it hard to contemplate this questions...because I don't often recognize my feelings. 

Mainly, I fear that my loved ones will not give their hearts to God. That would be the most horrendous eternity that I can imagine. 

Most of my fears are things I have no control over. How Bryn & Cora will turn out, how will they resolve her trauma. Mike being alone. Emily's health. All of our health really. 

I have fear about surviving retirement. We didn't financially prepare well and are now scrambling. I'd really like to retire at 67, but am not sure that I'll be be ale to afford to do so.  I fear a health issue will totally wipe us out, or separate us from each other. 

Obviously, there is uncertainty about the future of this world, what will life be like for my grandbabies and great grandbabies.  But as with most of my named fears, I don't fret too much about it. I turn it over to God. (Often repeatedly..LOL)



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